I am in a better mood today, I guess that I was half hoping that the ovarian test meant nothing and that I would be able to show the world that I could be in control of that too.
I love controlling everything in my life, from my job, to my house, to what my garden looks like…and I feel that getting pregnant is the exception… It want it to happen fast and it is not.
I realise that I am being unrealistic, but I would like to be pregnant by now. Everyone around me seems to get pregnant.
However if I put my rational hat on I realise that actually we know many people that are struggling to have a child, or have been. I guess I see what I want to see.
I am so determined to show doctors that I don’t need them, I want to get pregnant with my husband, and not with a doctor’s help!
I wonder if the monitors are really helping me control this?
I feel that the clearblue and ovacue are giving me more worry and questions than empowerment. I feel confused by the results and they make me wonder if I am normal.
DuoFertility and the ovulation tests are giving more accurate information. But I only like the ovulation tests as my doctor explained that it wasn’t a problem not to see a clear positive result. The duofertility makes me feel more in control, but to be honest, it is more the team than the monitor. They are giving more lots of information and make me feel empowered to tackle this challenge!
Technology alone is not the solution for me.